My confessions

Im indecisive, and I hate it.

When Im insecure, I tend to change my hair (cut it all off, grow an afro, get braids, now locs)

I make false promises to myself and keep ones that I make to other people.

My worst fears: the lost of a loved one, marrying a downlow brother, STDs, being unsucessful

I try to live up to my standards as well as other peoples
I yern for the things that I do have

I believe that I will be apart of that 64% of black women who never get married, it scares me

I know I should go to church more

I have several defense mechanisms

I have a tough exterior but am sensitive as a nerve

trust me, it sounds worse than it is. Despite it all, I am happy... but yea thats all I got for now