Thursday, September 18, 2008

My world, my mind

Some people would say that Im outta my mind
I don’t care to fit into a fed ex box, and be shipped off at anyone’s scheduled time
Nothing but a possibility
An example of what would happen if people didn’t give a fuck about society
A social experiment of what would go wrong if the world stopped basing themselves off of what they see on T.V.
Guess Im just the outcome of the division in the black community
Never to be
Confused with the multiplication of the typical 80 babies
Apart of the crack kids but at the end of the day, Im just me
And I only add and subtract to myself and my persona as I see fit
No theorem could explain, what you see is what you get
So maybe, since my decimals go on and on, Im outta my mind
An incomprehensible equation, the remainder you still can’t find
Truly an ass in the crack of society
And the probability of me being ordinary is highly unlikely
With this being said, know that for me, there’s no better place than the state of my mind
I may vacay to the real world every so often but I return home every time

Have you ever felt like it’s a struggle to just be yourself?
You cant find comfort in your own skin cuz no one else is wearing it?
And when you realize that its okay to be EXTRAordinary people act like its horrible. Deep down, everyone wants to be different, or even just wants to be themselves but they are afraid to let go and do them. Im not one of those people…anymore at least. I don’t care about a lot. I try not to even ask for peoples opinions anymore. I don’t wanna know. I just feel like everyone should be free and sit under apple trees and eat grapes all day lol. But I’ve released myself from the pressure of fitting the mold. I’m just me…if that makes any sense…

Face Value

“When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time” Maya Angelou

To make it plain, an illusion is nothing but a misapprehension
Something that deceives by producing a false or misleading apprehension of reality
Reality became clear when I first saw your true colors…
How colorful you can be
Unknown to me, so now I feel like a fool
As it seems, I thought I knew…
but surly had no idea
I’ve been had.
Led astray.
Out winked
Essentially…Im bamboozled
Lesson learned
Knowledge well earned
Face Value is the key
Got blind when I saw you’re true colors, such a discrepancy
Vision blurred
Picture perfect is smeared
Everything is so abstract now
How sad
Yet its funny when clarity is gained
And someone’s true colors become framed
What exactly was your aim?
Was this just your persona
A cruel joke you decided to play
Is this permanent or something just for today?
Nevermind, its okay
because I know that this is you
Dont like what I see
but its reality
Everything is everything at face value
Better understanding of you
A sure representation of the type of shit you put me through
I saw it for my own eyes, now what am I gonna do...

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


How do you define racism??? If asked that question I would ask myself if white supremacy is still institutionalized? Do black people continue to suffer as a result of white supremacy? And do white people continue to exploit and control black people – mentally and physically? The answers to all of these questions are yes, therefore, I would ultimately define racism through the continuous growth and efforts of white supremacy. Aside from simple acts that some white people do to prove their supremacy- such as calling us nigger and hanging nooses everywhere- the overall condition of black people are shaped and controlled by white people. New Orleans is a perfect example of this. I, along with every other person I have discussed the flood with in New Orleans, believe that our government blew up the levees to preserve the white neighborhoods and to also move the black property owners out so that they would be able to extract oil from the lower 9th. Some may staunchly believe that the government would not do that and that we have moved on from the racism from the past but I would argue that the faults of the past have manifested into the 21st century. Just like a mire amendment did not truly free the slaves, mire laws that are suppose to grant us equality are all illusions. I whole-heartedly believe that the same way that they sold us on the auction block, hung us, burned us, buried us alive, cut off our limbs, raped our women, castrated our men, left our babies empty bellied, broke up our families, deprived us of adequate education and living conditions, deprived us of our history, murdered our leaders, implemented Jim Crow and COINTELPRO, burned down black wall street in Tulsa, have also in fact flooded New Orleans. Blacks are still not considered human beings in Amerikkka! The “founding fathers” documented that we were 3/5 a citizen and the state of New Orleans is a perfect example of this belief. What is most upsetting is when you step back and look past the abandoned homes, overcrowded schools, and oppressive living conditions; you can see the look of hopelessness in the people’s eyes. Every man, woman, and child outside of the French quarters have this look in their face. Three years later and many haven’t even received a simple apology. But maybe the truth is that Amerikkka really isn’t sorry. Every now and then they offer some silly apology for slavery but we continue to suffer. Bush and his crime partners, the dirty cops, crocket politicians, ex cetera- they don’t give a damn. Badu said we were baptized when the levees broke- we were. Only problem is, is that many are still in the water. Some of us are floating around while others are still fully submerged. Mentally, we haven’t regain the sense of consciousness and rebirth that we need in our communities in order to confront this issue of racism. We are drowning in this submission of the acceptance of racism but we really need to look at this for what it is. Racism. My hope is that we can get ourselves together to dissolve the continuous efforts of the controlling forces around us before it’s too late.


SOOOOOO… two decades (almost) of living and I think I’ve come up with the answer- fuck it.
Men lie
Women lie
Numbers don’t (right hov’)
But some stuff still wasn’t adding up Fuck it- Im through analyzing certain situations, worrying about it, trying to fix it. When it comes to certain relationships with friends or people its should just be natural.Things never turn out the way you expect. WhateverI watch, I listen, I learn
I make mistakes – but no regrets because at that moment that was exactly what I wanted
So fuck it lol
Laces tied tight- I aint trippin
New attitude at age 20 = I aint trippin. Im bouta just DO and worry about MENot sweatin shit, let shit sweat me instead (right, right)
Because all people have their own angle
Their own agenda
And for them to get up may require you to get downIm not down wit it. Just got hip to that crabs in a barrel shit.
But fuck it, fuck em
Im not trying to send bad energy out there
I love hard but I fall harderBut im soooo tired of the same ol’ same ol’
Just starting to recognize that the world is mine when I wake up and I get a chance to evolve into a better version of myself
You think you kno…but you have noooo idea
I am: beautiful, intelligent, lovingI am becoming: stronger by the hour
Family matters, couple of cool friends, and some tough skin“Gotta slick mouth you may wanna roll wit me”
Not the person I use to beIf you’re not wit it get lostIf you cant keep up, stay behindOnly the strong surviveI do it because a
and that's one thing that will never change :)

The Critique

Who???First and foremost I am a Queen (lol, if I don’t claim it, who will right…exactly).
And I do what I want because I can.
Shades black…
Pretty laid back…
Plenty try to hold me back, but fuck em (right??? Right)
“Hater n***** marry hater b****** and have hated kids” right Kanye, right
Refuse to excuse, conform or submit to the system
Some call it revolutionary…I call it evolutionary (you may wanna get wit it)
I get kinda complicated once you start to get under my layers (do you dare lls)
I don’t really care
But Im a female who “loves to love to love ya” (right Timbaland and Magoo, right)
And I put my all into the people I care 4 What???
First and foremost I’m a Queen (If I don’t claim it, who will…exactly).
And I do what I want because I can
You wont see me sweat, you will never see me cry…
I wont give you the benefit of seeing any negative effects you’ve had on me
You only see what I show you…
“I talk a lot of shit cuz I can back it up…”
Self-lover at all times
Fine like wine (lol)(how I have a poem that halfway rhyme? Cuz I can do that lol)
First and foremost I’m a Queen (If I don’t claim it who will right…exactly).
And I do what I want because I can…
Began June 20th back in the 80s…
Last year…
Last week…
All day…
Every day…
My heart will always be the same
The core of me will never change
Dana Racine- true til the end of my reignWhy???
First and foremost I’m a Queen (If I don’t claim it who will right…exactly).
And I do what I want because I can…
I do everything I do for me
Ima be satisfied with every decision that I make
Even if it was a mistake
Cuz if I claimed to be perfect I’d be fake
So I keep it real and critique my shit on the daily
And every night, when I lay my head on my pillow, I remind myself that despite everything I’m still a Queen (If I don’t claim it who will) and I do whatever I want because I most definitely can
If you don’t have the same attitude you should adopt it


Sooo I guess Im the chosen one
I chase you, you chase me
In circles we go
running no where in particular
just for fun...i guess
*DRAW FOUR and the color is RED
You cant be serious
when all I have in my hand are blue and green
dare you to ask more of me than Im currently capable of giving
then I gotta draw too
so I pick up and pick up til I got damn near all the cards in my hand
then when I finally get my red, I gotta give it up
Thats bullshit
So you put me through all this, gave me extra baggage and in the end
still not what your looking for, cuz I dont have the color red???
Okay last game...
You tell me exactly what to do and I'll do it
right arm green
left leg red
twist my body like my mind
Im a freakin pretzel
Nevertheless following your directions
With the hopes that you will put me out of my misery
But you would rather watch me fall
Im through
The games we play
Have got to stop one day
Its bullshitbitchassfuckery
And I